Once again I was experiencing the excitement/terror vibe.
Excited at seeing the bambino again but terrified of the results of the nuchal fold scan.
As an older Mum, my risk of having a Downs Syndrome baby is obviously higher than some fresh 30 year old. It's amazing how many people like to point that out, just incase I had forgotten any previous scaremongering. As if.
So once I had found out that my 12 week scan with the NHS was infact going to be more like a 15 week scan I decided to book myself in for a nuchal fold scan, which of course York PCT doesn't pay for... many other PCT's do include this service for older Mum's...but York...don't be silly!!
My Midwife had told me that I should go to the clinic in Stamford Bridge, then if I got the 'wrong' result they could 'get me in quick' as one of their Consultants carried out the scans.
I told her that whatever the result I had no intention of aborting my baby,having gone through IVF if this baby was Down's then that was something I would have to accept. I just saw the test as a 'heads up' and thought it would give me a chance to get my head round a Down's baby if that's what was going to happen.
But I was scared, no one wants a Down's baby by choice and I started to get nervous about the test.
Scan day arrived, my appointment wasn't until 6.40pm so I paced around all day! Mum arrived about 4.30 with cake to keep me distrated. As we got in the car it became apparent that the traffic was DREADFUL. Damn it, after all that waiting we were going to be late!!!!
Finally got there about 10 minutes late, luckily they were behind time so it didn't matter. I even had to wait for another 20 minutes with a full bladder & nerves, NOT FUN!!!
At last it was my turn...
My little bean had grown arms & legs, it was waving & kicking and looked more like a baby than a bean...
The sonographer said that everything looked good and that the nuchal translucency was about 1mm which meant that Downs was unlikely....HOOOORAH, sooooo happy.
I had some bloods taken now I just had to wait for these combined results that would arrive in a couple of days.
Until then i just stared at the pictures of my bambino.
Previous risk, age etc: 1 in 93
Adjusted Risk: 1 in 1857
Skull/brain appears normal,heart appears normal,spine appears normal, abdomen appears normal, stomach visible, bladder visible, hands both visible, feet both visible.
Summary of ultrasound findings: Normal intrauterine pregnancy.
I couldn't be happier :)
Next stop 15 week scan with the NHS.